Some anxiety with a slice of humour on the side

I am having an anxiety attack as we speak. I’ve been having it for a couple of hours already and last night I had a similar one. I pretty much feel like screaming. But I don’t because I can’t wrap my head around what should I scream about first.

Possible causes:

1. It’s that time of the month. That time of the month when I have to cut&colour my hair. I cut&colour my hair every other month. Two weeks before the visit at the hairdresser it looks just sad. And it has grey roots. Depressing.

2. In the past few days spent too much time inside, in front of the computer, reading about London, instead of actually exploring it. Pro: I spent no £££ and the introvert inside me is happy for the break. Cons: Hmmmmm…none. I needed this break.

3. In case sugar and mascarpone are anxiety triggers, it’s because I had too much Tiramisu last night and today. And I might have another one once I finish writing this.

4. I read like 400 hundred pages and o tone of articles in two days.

5. I had one month holiday. Of course you go crazy when you do nothing and then rest.

4. Maybe I need to up my dose or change my meds?


What to do (if you don’t have Xanax at hand)

1. Breath (I did. Not working)

2. Count and count and count (I did. In two languages. Not working)

3. Organize a drawer/cupboard/something (No, thank you)

4. Try to stay in the present. Don’t let your mind stray (I looked out the window at the half moon and the few stars, amazed of what nice colours the night sky has. Then I remembered the colours are because of the pollution and I got mad)

5. Call a friend and look for sympathy (Not my style)


What I did:

1. Cracked three eggs and beat them hard. Added salt and pepper, goat cheese and green onion. Made a hell of a omelette and wolfed it down. 

2. Talked about it on the blog.


Am I feeling better? 







6 thoughts on “Some anxiety with a slice of humour on the side

  1. 1EarthUnited says:

    Reblogged this on 1EarthUnited and commented:
    There’s nothing “wrong” with you per se. You’re just suffering from existential angst like everyone else in the world due to the acceleration of our collective development, which comes with a side order of fear, anxiety, anger, grief/ with a touch of insanity! If you really want to understand what’s going on, explore it further by observing your feelings and reactions while sitting quietly, be still and do nothing but watch. Be the witness of life’s drama unfolding before you, and detach a little. The real scary part… what u’ll soon realize is that the world is a macrocosm of the collective “us”, we are a part of this world, which means we are a “fractally integrated” part and parcel of the whole & have the power to change it. HOW? By persistently witnessing ourselves every moment we exist while interacting with our reality. How do we correctly perceive & integrate our truth in any given situation? How can we change our preconception/ response to achieve a better outcome. This is called active participation in the creation of our reality, it requires responsibility/ response-ability. Our “awakening” demands consistent conscious awareness of our internal milieu and diligent assessment/ discernment of the present moment. This is called living in the NOW. Drop the mind games & focus BE HERE-NOW! AWAKE! ♥


    1. Lavinia says:

      I am working very hard on it! Keeping myself in the NOW is the hardest thing I have to do every day. Especially when I have nothing to do in particular 😦 But I am trying!


  2. Mirela says:

    One week ago I posted the same pic with the “anxiety girl” on my facebook account! 🙂 I am very anxious myself lately due to some change to come into my life in the near future. So far, I cure it with sweets and books…unfortunately I can’t sleep very well during the night so I guees I’d better start organizing my drawers, too! :))
    Take good care of yourself!


    1. Lavinia says:

      You too. If you don’t stop feeling like that in two-three weeks, go see a doctor. Don’t let anxiety and insomnia linger. Anxiety brings insomnia which brings depression.


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